Yeah, whale watching was so cool, had to take my kid today to show her what she missed by blowing me off yesterday, she was amazed, which made it all new again for me.

eye-yi-yi on this one, hate to be perceived as negative so I won’t be (much), I’ll just say this, I clicked through to the HP site via your pal, Danielle’s site a few times this year…my disclaimer: what I’m about to say does not always occur for me (energetically speaking)…so I get to the site and her picture just screamed (energetically speaking) of an uptight controlling woman with sad eyes (just my words not judgment good/bad except the eyes, and the eyes are the mirror of the soul, if she was OK as is why would they look so sad and fragile?), like she didn’t really want to be that way, that was one thing…seeing and feeling that made me think: happiness would be pretty elusive to someone experiencing life that way and good on her for trying to find/sift her way through and sharing it with others bc I have seen this somewhat fragile look before on some women (men have it also but they wear it differently) – the other things are (my experience): hmmm, happiness just occurs, you cannot focus or plan for it necessarily, it is an outtake of your actions, and like I always tell my kid when she says I’m bored or I’m not happy – go do something useful for another person, it’s the quickest route out of either place. Then I hit her with a list of things she can do for me : ) to assist her in instant happiness (I know, how kind of me).

One other ‘happy trail’ – if you will, is – in every moment decide to just be in that moment (not some future outcropping of it, or past similar as this moment) – that one action sometimes means feeling pain, or something else not exactly given to ‘happiness’ per se, but to me, it’s part of this life experience so feel it, live it, and remind yourself to stay in the moment if you must, manifesto-ing our way into happiness seems like another broken and misguided American dream. If I can’t snap out of it, an ugly moment (as the other day) I take the seriously ‘worst case scenario’ route and say right out loud, ‘if it turns out like that, could you find a way to become at one with that?’ it works…feel free to try it…and there is the ZL livin’ it project ; ) hahaha…!

…I did click through to her ’27 tips’ though and was struck by my own intuitive grasp on that, I do most of those things without thinking and I would never break it down like that. I do what I critically call – ‘the look’ – I am a very visual woman so I like a certain aestetic, I turn around before I leave a room (or the house) look around and think ‘can I walk back into this and feel good/stable here?’ (it’s all about balance for me, you can blame my Libra tendencies if you wish, apparantly I am VERY Libran according to certain sources), on that note I’ll give some kudos to Ms Happiness Project bc I couldn’t explain how I do what I do, I just do it : )I wish her the best with her book. – Another American issue: too many books written on every damn subject, a trip to a book store is one big overwhelming prioject of its own, 100+ varieties of ‘happy books’ or ‘you name it’ it’s just plain overload, and very little in the way of original thoughts…wow, that was quite the bitch session…I’d apologize but it felt so good to tell the radical truth that I won’t. It’s all said with love and is just personal opinion, mine all mine : )

RE #3 – the anger thing, oh hell no, I never ever bought that shit about ‘never going to bed mad/angry’ puh-lease, I’ll go to bed however I want to (and ocassional angry sex can be wickedly weird and wonderful) hee hee : ) and I usually do require 24 to see if whatever it was really ticked me off or was it a fleeting thing. I once went off on a boyfriend, realized I was excalating the thing even more than I’d wanted to and my mouth was starting to get away from me and my true intent in going off in the first place – so I whipped off my clothes and jumped into the ice cold pool we were sitting near, yeah, uh, that did the trick, he was stunned with a capital F, said he couldn’t decide whether it was the funniest thing or the sexiest thing he’d ever seen, after laughing our asses off he decided it was the latter ; ) and we made up, so don’t go to bed mad, jump in a pool and soak your head!

Ok, gotta roll…caio for now, Luv, Zen Lill